“Dying?”
“Yes, I’m afraid of death.”
“What demon in the world isn’t afraid of that?”
Just because we were students raised for war, it didn’t mean that we wouldn’t be afraid of death.
We desperately tried to ignore our fear in order to kill humans and get revenge, even if it meant trading our own lives for it.
But.
Luna shook her head again.
"What I fear is not my own death."
"You're not afraid of death?"
"Of course I'm afraid of dying. I'm a Demon after all. But what scares me more is..."
Luna couldn't finish her sentence and began to sob.
Her emotions were overflowing, and the sound of her crying made my heart ache.
I gently stroked Luna's light pink hair and waited for her to calm down.
Soon, Luna, who had been sobbing, opened her mouth.
"I'm terrified of the person I'm connected to dying... I wish no one would die."
"......"
"I tried. I wanted no one to die, I wanted to save everyone, but it was impossible. I tried so hard, but I couldn't stop it."
"Luna."
I tried to stop Luna, who was pouring out her emotions, but she didn't stop talking.
"Like grains of sand crumbling in my hand, they're gone in an instant. How can I stop everyone from dying? Adel, you're smart."
After a while.
Luna squeezed my hand tightly and spoke as if she were spitting out the words.
"Adel, tell me. What should I do? Please... ."
"......"
I couldn't answer or comfort Luna's tearful question.
I simply.
Pulled my hand out of Luna's.
Because I thought that what she needed now was not comfort or empathy, but the strength to adapt to this tragic reality.
Whew.
I took a deep breath and continued my story.
"More of your comrades will die in the future."
I'm not trying to scare you, it's the truth.
No matter how much the Saintess dwells in Luna's body, Satan's students will die one by one.
No.
Maybe they'll all die.
According to the original story, it was a foregone conclusion.
I'm the only variable, but just because I'm here doesn't mean the Demons will win.
The protagonist's party will continue to grow stronger, and as the story progresses, there's no doubt that settings I don't know about will pop up.
Soon, Luna will be at a crossroads.
'Idea must have been wary of this.'
In Orgon, Idea tested me.
Whether I would have the iron heart to save only the talented students, or whether I would choose the difficult path of trying to save everyone.
There, I chose to have an iron heart.
But Luna would be different from me.
No matter what I said, Luna would not be able to make the choice of abandoning her comrades.
It might seem frustrating.
But to me, Luna seemed normal.
This world that instigates revenge in children who are not even adults and tells them to get used to the deaths around them is crazy.
But…
“Will you just cry every time someone around you dies? Sometimes, you need to let go of your foolishness.”
“Let go of my foolishness…?”
“Yes.”
The meaning of my words was simple.
It did not mean to abandon the mindset of saving everyone.
It would be helpful for us if she tried to heal her allies, and it would not cause any harm.
However, it was necessary to refrain from delaying time by bursting into tears over the death of each student like this time.
And what I was going to say would be an important mindset for Luna in the future.
“If you want to save everyone, do your best. You have to somehow evolve your healing ability and train your magic.”
“…But what if someone dies even after I do that?”
“If you did your best and still could not save them, then that is the end of it. I am not saying that you should not feel guilty. Rather, it would be better if you did.”
Frustration will be an opportunity for Luna to evolve further.
Both mentally and in terms of ability.
However, if she fails to use that frustration as fertilizer and falls over, that will be the end of it.
No matter how much I try to help Luna, it cannot be helped if her will does not support her.
So.
“I hope you do not forget the emotions you felt today. If you want to grow further, you need to become stronger, not collapse.”
To collapse and to become stronger.
The two were only one step apart.
Just as soil can be washed away by rain and collapse like a landslide, or it can become mud and solidify again.
I hope that Luna will become stronger.
Otherwise, she will not be able to survive in this twisted world.
Luna nodded at my words.
“Yes, I will try…”
As she said that, Luna burrowed into my arms.
I felt a warm heat from her body that was different from the lukewarmness of blood.
Luna closed her eyes and fell fast asleep before I could even be surprised.
Sigh, really…….
She fell asleep with her eyes closed, saying she was tired while others were talking earnestly.
I quietly smiled.
I guess I can let this slide.
“……Since she’s cute, I’ll let her sleep.”
Swish-.
I stroked Luna’s soft, light pink hair and muttered.
I wondered if such a frail and delicate child could survive this chaotic world, but I decided not to worry about it.
I’ve already done everything I can.
Not material help, but psychological help ends here.
The rest is…….
‘Up to Luna.’
It’s already burdensome to take care of myself, so I don’t have time to take care of Luna too.
……Rather, it’ll be soon.
‘Will it be possible with this body?’
As I tried to sleep, I suddenly became worried.
If there are no variables, we will most likely encounter the protagonist’s party.
But my current physical condition is not normal, is it?
Thanks to Luna’s treatment, I was able to avoid excessive bleeding, but what can I do with one arm that’s broken into pieces?
I had lost the pain due to the side effects of Absolute Stealth, but the pain had returned and was tormenting me even now.
I hope nothing happens.
‘I don’t want to meet him yet…….’
I’m not mentally prepared to meet that protagonist guy.
I don’t want to see the guy I favored almost like a creator become a hypocrite.
If that situation comes, will I be able to kill Hamel, the protagonist, just because he’s different from what I knew?
My mind is complicated.
I couldn’t fall asleep easily.
That’s why I,
muttered with regret and irritation towards the guy who brought me here.
‘……Damn it.’
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You couldn't even kill his companion, don't bother thinking about killing him. You're too weak to even consider that 😞
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